shut-update

Hi,

I haven't harmed myself badly since October 24, 2015. That's quite long ago and I'm happy about that.
I'm afraid that I will relapse again, because everyone around me (my mom, brother, other brother, sister, gf of my brother, 90% of my class) is annoying me. They act like they do everything perfectly and I'm doing everything wrong. If my sister gets 70% on a test, everyone is happy with it, but if I get 70% on the same test, everyone says that I didn't study good enough or that I could have done better. I'm so done with everyone.
I want to walk away, but the only options to go to are:
            Living with my dad:                                     Go to my best friend:
-far from school and my best friend              -I can't stay for a long time
-my brother and his gf live here too              -I don't know her parents and                                                                                                        brothers that well

So that won't work. I'll be sharing my room with my sister for some more years then.
That's about everything for today! (I hope I can handle the urge for sh)

Bye potat's!